Feelings Of You!!!

How is it that I can love you so, if I never met you?
I know you are there, I need of you.
I feel your hands as if my skin could touch them

I can feel your kisses, your lips smooth and warm.
I feel your kisses lose themselves within me, as if you were close to me.. Yet you have never kissed me.

I listen to the sound of your voice.
Your silent voice. I hear it in my ears, it is a delight to my senses.
The tone of your words reaches my heart.
Although I have never listened to your voice.

I feel your trembling heart, your enthusiastic love, your passionate desire.
I can smell your rich fragrance, I can feel the warmth of your skin.
Even though, you are in the distance.

My fingers say to you, I love you. My letters say I miss you.
My anxious love I can transmit, I love you and I cannot resist.
I can only think of you.

My heart you have penetrated, my emotions are so strong,sometimes
I cannot control them, because I cannot explain them.
I have feelings of you, my unseen lover.......

Power Failures!!

well, these last couple ov days have been hell for me, as we had a major power failure and the power cables were even burnt... i was totally exhausted and there was a constant black out in my locality... the KESC walas asked for Rs.15,000 for the repairs and we tried to collect that amount from our neighbors as well... finally we got to manage 12,000 bucks...
i must add, the UNION of our appartments is awful and corrupted to the roots... not a single person was willing to help us out, so we had to do everything ourselves...imagine the frustration...what a disasterrific situation...
so, I had to come up with a solution, and went to get an electrician alongwith my neighbor friend... we brought the electrician and did some hectic stuff and managed to run a couple of fans and neon lights, and hopefully, the direct power is expected to come back today at midday... lets see what happens...
what we actually did was, get a connection from our neighbors, and share some power, we will ofcourse compensate in the bills...
lotsa prayers our needed folks, so plz pray for us....

Cheers Folks!!!

I am really starting to fall in love with the KESC people!!

Its amazing, how the KESC people make our lives, the civilized people worthwile!!
They provide us with electricity, value added services, and a glimpse of hell in our lives here, so that we may avoid the sinful life and start offering our prayers!!

I am having a power faliure for the last 36 hours and there is no hope of any recovery for atleast the next 24 hours....i might as well write a will beforehand, because i might need it in the near future!!!

Crazy as it may sound, but ive given up hope!!!

cheers folks!!!

Fresher's Night!!!

What an amazing party it was, full of fun and excitement....for all others there!! not for me...
i didn't seem to be enjoying the concert or that stupid roll.....but there was something of great interest for me there!!!
im not telling u ofcourse!!!
the bset part was, when the friend who was supposed to take me back home, left me and messaged me after 30 minutes, that he had to go to his granny's...imagine my fury, when i read the message...it was awful, now how was i supposed to go back home!!!
well, i got lucky, and after waiting for an hour, i managed to hire an auto rickshaw, and went home safe and sound!!!

phew, that was close!!!

cheers folks!!!

Will someone please explain?

Does anyone really believe that Arnold's mentality has changed since his sword wielding Conan days? Doesn't anyone remember his answer to what is good in life? If you Californians have forgotten, let Umuj remind you.



Question to Conan
Conan, what is great in life?

Conan
"Crush your enemies, see them driven before you, and to hear the lamentation of the women!"

KESC Rulz!!!

After today, ive become a huge admirer ov the KESC wala's!!!
we had a power failure due to an exploding PMT at around 7:00 am today...oh, n let me tell u one more thing, i was fasting today....
so, it was a PMT explosion, n no power....n guess what, the power came back at 7:00 pm in the evening...where is the humanity i ask u!!!
12 hours ov non stop torture n yet we call ourselves civilized creatures...

during the day, while fasting, i had to go to the Standard Chartered Bank and Askari Bank to make my Credit Card payments...n then i walked all the way to Jumbo books just to buy a couple ov books...i didn't even get the Services Marketing book that i really needed!!!

got back home n mom handed me a list of groceries that i had to bring home, n do keep in mind that i have a habit ov forgetting atleast one item!!
fortunately, i didn't forget anything today!!! i was so exhausted that i needed not just a nap but a complete 12 hour sleep, but i just took a very short nap....but i must say, it did wonders n i felt tired no more...
then it was iftar time, n i cudn't help n jump on the food...but having just a few things, i went to offer the maghreb prayers, n when the power was back, played CSI 2: Dark Motives, an awsum game if u ask me!!!

then i had another power failure at around 10:00 pm....it returned shortly, but pain in the hiney, if u ask me!!!
what a day, a real cursed day no doubt!!! curse those dirty rotten KESC pirates!!!

Adious!!!

Downloads!!!

Ive added a new section by the heading "Downloads"...
im gunna add songs, specially my favorite one's, soon...u can download the songs from there!!!!
and if anyone wants any songs that u haven't been able to find (classics or even new songs), and desperately want that song, just comment on my most recent blog, telling me about that song...if i have that song, i'll upload it for u to download!!!!

cheers folks!!!

Don't You Feel It Sometimes Too??

In life u always meet people and make friends that u consider very dear and think ov them as ur best friends....and yet, at some point in life u get ditched or backstabbed by them....
and then u feel as if ur whole world has come crashing down on u...but in time u heal and make new friends and then someone new becomes ur best friend but again it happens...u again get backstabbed...
its happened to me so many times, and yet u wud expect me to learn from it...but everytime i feel shattered, yet again i get back on my feet and fight the disappointment....again i make new friends and again they disappoint me...well, its happened to me again recently...
i can't help it...its not in my nature to stop trusting people, i sumhow, get over it...at times, i really hate myself for that...but no matter how hard i try, i keep trusting people....

well, i can only pray that people wud be more considerate over the feelings ov other people...u never know, sumday u might end up hurting urself....
n i pray, that every single person wud have real trustworthy friends, that wud always be their support, throughout their lives, Amen!!!!

God Bless you folks!!!!

Math Genius!!!

Here is a forwarded post, that i thot was real funny....

im posting it just for the heck ov it!!!

Back to School (University)

Today the university reopened...and my first day as an MBA student...the day wuz awful if u ask me...no fun n plenty to study for the first day...

anywayz, i wuz feeling really grouchy today, nothing amazing happen anyway...
but plenty more to come ur way, so dun worry....

cheers folks!!!

Celebrations are in order!!!

Yaay!! tomorrow's a big day...il be going to the university tomorrow as an MBA student now, my very first day...ive never been so excited about the university being re-opened...and MBA is not the reason for my excitement, there's something else that im not gunna tell u...hehe!!!

anyhow, i got myself a haircut, cuz me face is to cute to hide behind me hair...lolz, j/k!! actually, my head felt so heavy that is why i got a haircut, and the hair were a mess too...now i feel so much better and light headed...
anywayz, now that the university is being re-opened, plenty of stuff is sure to come ur way folks...so take loadsa care until then...

cheers folks!!!

What an awful day!!!

Today was one of the most awful days ov my life...my friend made a request to help him out with his presentation and be there as audience...he picked me up from my place at 8:00 am, n then it took so long for the ma'am to arrive, and the presentations started at 10:30 am...
finally, free at last at 12:30 pm, but what the hell...my finance teacher came to me and asked me to volunteer for a finance seminar that was due at 6:00 pm...i cudnt refuse cuz im not at good terms with him, he could skin me alive for what hez capable ov....
anywayz, i said i'll see...got back home at around 1:15 pm...took a nap after lunch, but my frienz started calling me at 2:30 pm, to come to the seminar, they literally forced me...so i had to go...i got to the university (again) at around 5:15pm. but the seminar didn't even start till 6:45 pm...
anyhow, it ended around 8:30 pm. and then we went to Arizona Grill for dinner... i had steaks and lottsa salad there (so scrumptious)

finally got back at around 10:00pm....and man, i was totally exhausted...

i slept right away to end the day, but mum woke me up a little earlier (moments ago), cuz we have to wish my grandmother after midnite...
boy, what day!!!

cheers folks!!!

Quotes about Honesty

You just have to love quotes and aphorisms because they are such pure reflections of collective cultural wisdom. And... they just happen to make light, fun blog reading as well, a necessary counterpoint to quantum math and such. So, I was about to trash these quotes, a collection I put together when I used to read almost every quote in sight and was crazy about them, but thought to put them instead in a box here so they can boggle the mind of more than just this one solitary admirerer (of sorts) of societal hypocrisy embedded within our wisdemonic heritage:

An honest man does not make himself a dog for the sake of a bone. - Danish Proverbs
It is better to be poor and honest than wealthy and dishonest - Proverbs
Kings take pleasure in honest lips; they value a man who speaks the truth. - The Bible
The honesty of the upright guides them; the faithless are ruined by their duplicity. - The Bible
Honesty is praised while it starves. - Latin proverb
The surest way to remain poor is to be an honest man. - French Proverb
Rather than tell a lie to help a friend, it is better to assist him in paying the fine for his offense. - Nigerian proverb
An honest Man will receive neither Money nor Praise that is not his Due. - English proverb
Slander cannot destroy an honest man - when the flood recedes the rock is there. - Chinese proverb
An honest man is hurt by praise unjustly bestowed - French Proverb
Nothing resembles an honest man more than a cheat. - French proverb
He is not an honest man who will burn his tongue and not tell the company that the soup is hot. - Balkan proverb
The thief who finds no opportunity to steal, considers himself an honest man - The Talmud
A cynic is a person searching for an honest man, with a stolen lantern -Edgar Shoaff

and, of course, the King of triteful nothing sayings, one that gives all aphorisms a bad name...

Honesty is the best policy - English Proverb

10 Guiding Principles

1. Be betterer. What does 1 + 1 equal? 2 is the right answer. Everybody knows that. But 1+1 also = 2 or 3 or more if, not to offend the anti-emotion business sensibility, one is referring to the unity of love or the multiplicity of procreation. To my way of thinking 1 and 3 are both betterer answers than 2, but you have to shift the mental gaze a wee tad to get there from here and that takes a bit of work.

2. Shift the Gaze. It takes but a miniscule shift of focus, a squint of the eyes or barely perceptible jog of focus to the left or right to rediscover, as if for the very first time, all those things we thought we knew at the edges of our peripheral vision.

3. Form Should Follow Desire. Most of us desire a better world for -- oh, that dreaded emotion again -- the children we have or hope one day to have. Shall we simply "hope" for that better future or maybe do a thing or two to help make that future happen? Put up or shut up. Don't talk the talk if you won't walk the walk. That's bad form.

4. In business the Client is NOT always right. Believe me. I've watched you pick the ugliest design far too often and subjective opinion only goes so far. Then again, you often ARE right. It's why the dialectic is so critically important to the process of design and communications. I consider every engagement I am involved in a partnership.

5. I know what I know but not much else. I suspect, however, many things and aim to figure out if I was right.

6. Point of view. I have one. Yes. I really do. And I WILL inject that view into my work.

7. Nothing is impossible. Some things are just more likely.

8. Please, don't tell me "everybody does it" and expect me to just agree with you. That's irresponsible. And especially don't tell me I'm wrong if no one does it, but ought to.

9. Please, don't waste my time with respect to professionaI issues. I care about my clients too much to have it not be reciprocal and I will fire bad clients because I can throw good time in after bad, but that'simply bad business. No one wins in the end and the opportunity cost -- time well spent -- far outweighs the immediate short term gain.

10. Civility is never anachronistic. Call me old-fashioned, but while I greatly appreciate the thank you's I have received in response to expressions such as "Please," "thank you" and "you're welcome," I am somewhat non-plused by the utter astonishment that accompanies them. Common courtesy and respect for basic human dignity should never go out of style to the point where it becomes a "value add" in the course of daily life.

Bored!!!

well, i wuz bored so i thought, i shud do sumthing to kill the time...
so herez a little sumthing...n guess who this iz?....

Paid my dues!!!

I went to the university today, but it turns out, they were having a convocation of some previous batch...they were'nt letting anyone in, but hey, i got my resources, hehe!!!
i had to pay my dues actually, and wanted to get it over with quick, so i went inside and paid them...
now FINALLY, im registered for MBA...well, that was easy...now, only one thing remains to be done, now i have to get that clearance done and withdraw my caution money that i had submitted for my BBA...
things are goin pretty neat these days, thank God, and i hope they continue like this for a few more days, specially monday...
now im not gunna tell anyone why monday is so special...lolz!!!

cheers folks!!!

Usual day!!

Nothing unusual about today....
went to the bank n got a pay order prepared, then went to the uni to see if i can get the result before hand, but no luck...then got the clearance form n almost got it completely filled n signed, but the PC Office refused cuz my result is not out yet....
came back home a little late today...had lunch...then tried to take a nap but cudnt get this one thing outta my mind, so didn't sleep then....
later my frienz came to celebrate my freedom, went out n had a few drinks (not booze, mind u)....but i wuz not havin any fun so asked them to retire for today n we'd celebrate sum oda day...
then just went to la la land all ov a sudden while watching the tele....
woke up at around 9:00pm...
n then got the news that one of my uncle's mom has just died, got so sad n nervous cuz im so bad at condolences....
anyhow, went to condole him....
came back home n now im here, online!!!

cheers folks!!!!

Exam is over!!!

aaah, free atlast...
this time im sure im gunna pass this course, cuz i aced it today...the paper wuz so easy, i knew everything...i just kept going n going...my teacher wuz staring at me constantly, not cuz of any suspicious behavior from me, but cuz i filled 4 extra sheets...
anyhow, im sure to clear the course this time, n that too with a great grade....but plz, still keep praying for me...
ive even registered for my MBA 3 semester n gunna pay the fee on 31st August, so that all the formalities are done....

cheers folks!!!!

tit bit of the day

Hell I haven't been in a writing mood AT ALL lately, don't know why, but so it is :) Here's just a little something one of my friends forwarded to me, thought I'd share it with ya'all :)

Blog Skin!!

somebody said, that i wont be able to fix a nice template, but here i am, relaxing and feeling very satisfied for fixing up a great template for my blogspot....
so tell me folks, how do u like this template, pretty neat na...

cheers folks!!!

Free template Setting Offer

Yesterday, i wuz offered a complete service for new templates and setting them up by a very good friend ov mine...im thinking about getting help from her cuz i really like her blog spot...its soo kool...

cheers!!!

Happy Holidays!!!

aaahhh, finally, i didn't go to the university today...i wanted a break cuz i have a 3 hour lecture session in the morning...so i took the day off, laid back and relaxed today...woke up late...offered my Jumma prayers and had lunch then....
n later at around 8:00 pm, i had a pwr failure, after such a long time now...but who cares, a power failure is a power failure, right...
anyhow, it wuz a very relaxing day today....

cheers folks...

Exploration!!!

hey....today sumthing amazing happened....well, sumthing bad happened first, last night i had a fight with my best friend...we both dint talk much after that....
so i decided to visit my friends place today, n surprise the friend, and make peace....even though i wuz still carrying a little haze, but i still went to my friend's place....
first i went to another friend, who lives nearby, had lunch there, n sum tea...then a Japanese lady showed up at this friend's place with her cute daughter[:P] and not that i was paying any attention....anyway, i wuz getting late, and losing my patience, for i had to go n wave the white flag for my angry friend...
finally, we went outside, took the car, and parked it at a very far corner, then i called my friend, and just showed up at my friend's home...
my friend wuz sure as hell, surprised and happy....we immediately forgave one another for our mis behavior....and now, we're back on our old terms, infact even better...
i hope our friendship remains forever, Amen....

cheers folks!!!

Tag, ur it....

BEST:
1. Male friend: Mohsin and Saqib.....both at an equal scale...
2. Female friend: Sushma Upadhyay & Sammy Close
3. Vacation: Greece.....i'd love to meet Aphrodite....

WORST:
1. Time of day: wake up time....sux big time...
2. Day of the week: Sunday, i have to go do grocery for mom, n that sux too
3. Color crayon: White....no matter how hard i try, i can never see that color on white paper

LAST:
1. Person you talked to that goes to your school: Mansoor uz Zaman
2. Talked to on the phone: My bro....lives in Isloo
3. Text: Telenor!
4. Person who instant messaged you: Faizi

TODAY:
1. what are you doing now: Praying that i dun get a pwr failure, else this blog wud go to waste...
2. Wearing: Jeans and T - shirt

TOMORROW:
1. Is: Sunday, August 20th, 2006! whats the reason for asking
2. Got any plans: ya, got a lotta grocery to do
3. Goal: Sleep through the entire day....i knw that never gunna happen
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Holiday

FAVORITE:
1. Number: 8
2. Song: Hanging By a Moment by Lifehouse
3. Color: Blue

CURRENTLY:
1. Missing someone: my bro and my Dad the most
2. Mood: Just wanna get this over with
3. Wanting: Fly to the other side of the world

TRUE/FALSE:
I am a cuddler: yea...
I am a morning person: yeppers....every single day
I am a perfectionist: not really....i dun care about perfection, but everything i do, turns out to be perfect....
I am an only child: No, but the only cool one...
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: yaa...can i plz get some sooper glue? hehe, nah, no broken heart....
I am left handed: tried to be, but no luck...
I am addicted to Blogging: No, im new to it...
I am online 24/7: No, what do u think, i own a cable network or sumthing...
I am very shy around the opposite gender: Not shy, but quite reserved...
I can be paranoid at times: To myself only...
I currently have a crush on someone: Crush? i am not familiar with the word...hehe...
I currently regret something that I have done: nopes, i never regret anything...if i didn't make any mistake in the first place, how wud i learn then...
I enjoy country music: Definitely
I enjoy smoothies: yea
I enjoy talking on the phone: Hate it....can never figure out what to talk about....
I have a hard time paying attention at school/work: Yes, i luv Table Tennis, thats where ul find me, at the Table Tennis area, specially when the uni is about to close...
I have a hidden talent: Ive been trying to figure it out...no luck so far, but im sure that there must be sumthing hidden....
I have a lot to learn: Ya, my ABCs....
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: hmmmm...No...hey, its true

ANGER:
1. Are you currently mad at someone? Ya, everyone, except for just one person...
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? I'm the one with the worst temper, everyone is afraid ov my temper...
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone: Ya, i once threw a battery at my cousin and it hit his eye....
4. Ever something was thrown at you: Cash....lolz
5. When you’re mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream? Yell and Scream....

EXCITEMENT:
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party for you: ya, i get such birthday parties....
2. Are you easily excited: ya, sure....
3. What you’re most excited about:: Computer games
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? Its gunna take me a year to count all this cash....
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? A Library...

SELF-DISCOVERY:
1. Name: Muhammad Umair Akram Shah....(ive been asked to shorten my name, but why shud i?)
2. Where were you born? Ask my mom....
3. What’s your main goal in life? Be a better person...
4. How do you want to die? il leave that to the God to decide...

OPINIONS:
1. Sex before marriage? il think about it....seriously, no..im a religious person....
2. Gay Marriage? stop it already.....
3. Lower the Drinking age? id say, reduce the life by drinking....its bad for ur health....
4. Recycling? what exactly r we recycling here....ya, sure, that wud be great...

DREAMS:
1. What was your latest dream? i was at the uni, n everyone wuz my slave...
2. Have any of your dreams come true? A lot of them...
3. What was the weirdest dream you’ve ever had: well, i am not in the habit ov telling my dreams to other people....but hey, if u wana know, contact me in peson...
4: How many beds did you lay in yesterday? 2
5: What color shirt are you wearing? Black
6: Name one thing that you do everyday? send text messages
7: How much cash do you have on you right now? 184500
8: When was the last time you saw your dad? some 3 and a half years ago...til he was still alive...
9: When was the last time you saw your mom? an hour ago
10: What did you have for dinner last night? chicken and roti, and coke
11: What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? never borrow n never lend
12: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day? orkut n yahoo
13: Does anything hurt on your body right now? my head

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Have you ever failed a class?: ya, just once...a few months back
2. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd? ya, im a professional singer ;-) il be soon
3. Have you ever not taken a shower for 3 days? never, i cant stand the gross odour
4. Have you ever slept with a night light? as a matter of fact, i have...at my grand mumz place
5. Have you ever danced in the rain? uhh, r we supposed to? never
6. Have you ever lied? who doesn't....
7. Have you ever tripped over something stupid? yaa, stairs are the most common thing, n that too, in front of chicks...

PICK ONE:
1. Samosa, Pakora, Kebab: oh, cant i pick all three, i wud go for pakoras...
2. Bollywood, Lollywood and Hollywood: Hollywood
3. Love marriage, Arranged marriage: Love
4. Honeymoon, no moon: Honeymoon....
5. How many kids would u like 1,2, 3+ : 2, a boy n a girl
6. Kulfi, Ice cream: Ice cream, so can i have my pick now (i want a feast)
7. Shah ruk khan, Orlando Bloom: uhmm, how about none of the above...why isnt Johnny Depp here?
8. Meenar-e-Pakistan, Eiffel Tower: Eiffel Tower, cuz ive seen it...not for real dumbo, on TV...
9. Lahore, Khi, Islmbad : Karachi, cuz i live here...Islamabad, cuz its got the hottest chicks, n Lahore, cuz its got great food...

Tagging:
All, who have not been tagged

Addition to my Library!!

earlier today, or rather yesterday, cuz it wuz August 19th that i went to Liberty Books to buy a copy of Herman Hesse's Narziss and Goldmund...but that book wuz no where to be found...so i had the store guy write it down for me, hez gunna give me a call as soon as he gets it...so, i thought what am i gunna do in the meanwhile, so i got myself a couple of other books...
They're written by a new author, but my my, he sure as hell knows how to write...i bought, "Amulet of Samarkand" and "The Golem's Eye" by Jonathon Stroud...i luv the first one already, they're both parts of a trilogy...
well, thats about it....

cheers folks!!!

Its Raining Men!!!

lolz....yesterday's rain, well, it wuz one ov the most amazing rains that i hav witnessed my entire life....it wuz fun, n i sooo much enjoyed it...
but later in the evening it scared the hell outta me, when i heard the lightning....it seemed that the lightning hit something twice...n it wuz then that i started sending text messages to all my friends...thank God, every one was alrite...
and when i went outside today, there wuz no sign ov rain...
hmmm...it shows that what a wonderful treat the sun is....
well, wish u all brighter days ahead...

Cheers folks!!!

My Mid Term Exam!!!

well as u all know, i had to take Investment Banking, AGAIN, this summer, and today was the mid term paper....
I had got 20 marks out of 25...so in a way, i was well prepared, and it turns out that the teacher gave 98 % from the previous mid term paper, and what a joy it was...there was a question in which we had to write just 4 points and i wrote 17, there were only 4, and the 17 i wrote, well, none of them were correct...lolz...
so, this time around, i answered correctly....

Later today, after the exam, i went to the stock exchange to get the annual report, for reference for my term report....heck, it was extremely tiring...but that's part of the routine...
Anyhow, quite an exciting and eventful day if u ask me...

Cheers folks....

Independance Day!!!

Independance day yesterday, and i spent the day snoozing....pretty much a boring day if u ask me...nothing to do, nothing special...so nothing to report...just that it was the Independance Day and 59 years ago, Pakistan became an Independant State, or did it...hmmmm....

Cheers folks...

Its Me Birthday, yaaay!!!!

oh, just a few minutes left, till my birthday is over....
today wuz an awsome day...i went to my own birthday party that my friends threw for me.... we had a great time, n the rain poured heavily today as well...
the best part wuz when we jammed, i played the electric guitar for the first time, (i prefer accoustic)....anyhow, it wuz great, then we went out to enjoy the rain.....
but sumhow, i felt a little sad, cuz there wuz someone that i really missed....and i wish, that person cud hav been there on this occasion...
well, gotta go wish my friend, cuz its his birthday as its midnite already, my dear friend, Saqib's birthday....wow, it is parallel to Pakistan's....14th August....

cheers folks....
luv y'all

One More Day To Go....

oh today is 12th of August, and its going to be my birthday tomorrow...
just one day before Pakistan's Independance Day...i've got this huge wishlist, but it seems, therez no one to wish me, and give me presents...
so, if anyone reads this blog, kindly atleast wish me on my Birthday, pretty please....

Cheers folks....

Nothing new!!!

Well, i received a credit card statement today, i owe a lot to Standard Chartered...Talked to my brother on the phone, who is currently living in Islamabad...He calls me "Pretty Little Dum Dum"
me sad for that, :-(

Well, nothing new besides that...
Take carez peeps!!!
Cheers!!

Nothing New!!!!

Monday, August 7, 2006

Well, it was the happiest day of August for me, cuz my most special person had returned from a long vacation, and came to visit me at the University. She was looking so adorable and stunning. Even the other guys were looking at her.
She had brought the most amazing of things for me, and the best was the Mini Quran. ooohhh, and i love the snickers, yaaay....
When she left, i felt so alone...:(

Wednesday, August 9, 2006

I paid the University fee for the summers today. Nothing new so far, besides that. Lets see how the day goes.

Result Day----*beeeep*

Monday, July 10, 2006...
It was the result day and I was expecting to get awsome grades, and was hoping to finally graduate. But my Investment Banking professor had other plans set for me. He gave me an F, failed me, robbed me off of my graduation right.
*Sigh*, but who am I to argue. I tried to get it cleared somehow, but nothing doing. So, I accepted my fate, and registered for summers.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006...
What the.....Investment Banking course not being offered in the summers. Now that's just great. What did I ever do to deserve this. I have to get some other students by tomorrow to register and somehow clear the course in summers, else I won't be able to do my MBA, as planned.

Thursday, July 13, 2006...
Today I registered on behalf of 3 more students, because they are away on vacations. Talk about concern. Anyhow, the teachers say that now the course can be offered but they are not confirming it. I don't feel good, cuz I 've got a flu and fever, but still not sure if the course is being offered or not.

Friday, July 14, 2006...(Present Day)
hmmm...finally, things are in order. Investment Banking is being offered in summers. But I still don't know who the teacher teaching the course will be. Found my thesis and internship grades today, and because of them, I'm saved. I got a GPA of 3.14.
Now I can somehow, squeeze my CGPA up a bit from 2.9 to 2.95.
Still got that flu and fever, what a life. All my plans have gone to waste, now I can't go to Islamabad.

Well, that is how my whole week has been. A very eventful week. I had to go to the university everyday, just to get that crappy course offered. I just hope, neither Akbar Saeed nor Babar Ali teach that course, else I'm dead again.
The good news is: I can do my MBA on time now, that is, I can start from the Fall Semester 2006. What a week. Thank God, its over.

Graduation Party

Well...I came back home late tonight, and I so tried to sleept but I couldn't, cause I'm missing someone real special to me.
So here is how my graduation party go.
Well, I've been praying all day that I don't have a power failure today, and to my surprise, there was no power failure. Took a shower and got dressed real nice for the occasion. I was supposed to reach Lal Qila at 7:45 pm. but in stead got there at 9:15pm. Well, its not my fault, I was ready by 7:00pm, but the friend who was supposed to pick me up, got very very late.
So, finally reached Lal Qila at 9:15 pm. Luckily, only a few people had shown up, so no worries. hmmm...finally when everyone was there, we started eating, and everyone was eating like a maniac. As for me, I am never comfortable eating in public places.
It was fun, but I kept thinking about just one person and missed her like anything. I wish she could be there, next to me. *sighs*
Anyhow, it was a great party all in all. The girls said goodbyes, and left the place. And we guys decided to have another short party of our own, just the guys. So we decided to go to Damascus for some sheesha.
Again, it was fabulous, and we discussed football, (FIFA Football World Cup) over the sheesha.
Aaahh, decided to go home at exact midnight. Time to say final goodbyes. And hey, don't be silly, ofcourse we'll stay in touch, it was, well, official goodbyes. hehe.
That's how a great evening ended and we retired at last. And I finally came back home at 01:00am. Feeling tired and exhausted went to bed. Couldn't sleep, thinking of her ofcourse, and missing her. So I watched the match between Italy and Ukraine. It was a good match. After the match, I downloaded the snaps of the party that my friend had uploaded from his camera. And now, here I am summing up my evening.
It was a night to remember, as my friends put it. But for me, it was another 'miss you nights'. I'm gonna go to bed now.

Cheers folks!!!
:-)

pleasant dreamzzzz....

I am everything you know you'll never be

I am everything you
know you'll never be











Sometimes it takes picking up all the pieces to realize how badly you’ve fallen apart, and how they’ll never, ever fit together the same way again. Sometimes you realize that, even if you don’t want the pieces to ever fit that way again, you really miss the feeling of being whole anyway.

What a Day!!!

Huff, what a day it has been so far today.
Stayed up all night, last night, to complete my AFS(Analysis of Financial Statements) report. Completed it at 4:00 in the morning, took the printouts, stayed up till 6:15, and then finally went to bed. Aaaahh, what a feeling it was to finally enjoy the luxury of sleep, but ovcourse, KESC has always got other plans. POWER FAILURE. Oh my God, I didn't have my shirt ironed, didn't have the soft copy of my Thesis report burned on the CD.
PANIC TIME!!!
How could I have been so stupid and not burned the soft copy. To be honest, I didn't even have the hard copy with me either, it was at the photo copiers at the University campus. I had given it for hard binding.
Reached the university at 11:00 am. Jumping around happily, greeting everyone, happy cuz it was my last day at the university. But ofcourse, fate had other plans. Found out about the CD thingy, got my Thesis from the copiers, and had that stoopid AFS report spiral bound.
Went to the faculty cubicles later, and slammed the AFS report on my teachers table, hehe, I wish I could do that. Just gave the report to the teacher politely and left to get my Thesis signed by all the concerned people. Went to the program coordinater and told her about the CD. And to my disbelief, she politely gave me the extension for another day, but i am to give it to her tomorrow, before 11:00am. the same time I got to the university today.
Hung out with friends, said goodbyes to all the teachers who have been my course instructors throughout my BBA program. Went inside the cafe, and it was time to.......
PARTYYYY....
Yaayy!!! Freedom atlast, well, still got another day left. ]
Anywayz, went to Millenium mall for some window shopping at 1:30pm. Did some window shopping, got me a new shirt, gosh, I'm missing Giordano so much. Had lunch at Indulge with a friend.
Finally got back home at 3:00pm. dead tired, and jumped into bed hastily. And now, here I am, writing about my day so far. It was a disasterrific day for me. I hope tomorrow's gunna be better, cuz a very very very dear friend is leaving the country for Umrah, and its gunna be very lonely without that friend.
So, if you ever had such a day, lemme know.

Cheers folks!!

that's a nice smile there.....

:-)

Graduation Anecdotes

The excitement of graduation and the world of fulltime employment with benefits, and a fantastic social life is immense during the final academic semester.
Many do not have a clue about what they are going to do with their first year away from the academic world, and those that do, have either enrolled on internships or work placements or travel. And the unlucky few wind up as a statistic in the queue for job seekers allowance.
Now I have found myself in this position. I was indeed mortified at the prospect of being there for the rest of my life.
Hunting for employment is a difficult task and some will feel down trodden at the prospect of not getting what they want.
Anyhow, as most people would do other stuff or look for employment, I am going to look for ways to make the most out of the summers and the time between now and my Graduation. The best thing that I can think of, is doing my MBA immediately. And after my MBA, ofcourse, I will once again find myself in the same situation, I am right now.

Today!

I should now sum up my day, today.

Today was an awful day. Last night there was a huge power failure and i couldn't sleep all night long. Missed all the matches yesterday, n had to watch them today. I was supposed to finish my term report as well, n i haven't been able to even start the report. I feel so exhausted, didn't sleep much during my final exams, that ended yesterday. Oh, but there is a good news, with my last paper, I can say, Ive graduated.
Ovcourse, only a single term report remains between me and my freedom.
Wish me luck y'all, cuz I need all the luck I can get to get a good result.

Cheers folks...
:)
Keep smiling!!

Golly, so many poems!!!

Well, ive posted these 3 poems cuz these are sum ov my favorite poems. 2 of them were written by John Keats n 1 by William Wordsworth. 2 of the greatest poets we know of today.
In my life i have never made any one my idol or done sumthing ov the sort, but i have never closed my doors to inspiration, n these 2 poets have inspired me a great deal.
So please, this was just a small tribute to them.

HER EYES ARE WILD

HER eyes are wild, her head is bare,
The sun has burnt her coal-black hair;
Her eyebrows have a rusty stain,
And she came far from over the main.
She has a baby on her arm,
Or else she were alone:
And underneath the hay-stack warm,
And on the greenwood stone,
She talked and sung the woods among,
And it was in the English tongue.
"Sweet babe! they say that I am mad,
But nay, my heart is far too glad;
And I am happy when I sing
Full many a sad and doleful thing:
Then, lovely baby, do not fear!
I pray thee have no fear of me;
But safe as in a cradle, here,
My lovely baby! thou shalt be:
To thee I know too much I owe;
I cannot work thee any woe.
"A fire was once within my brain;
And in my head a dull, dull pain;
And fiendish faces, one, two, three,
Hung at my breast, and pulled at me;
But then there came a sight of joy;
It came at once to do me good;
I waked, and saw my little boy,
My little boy of flesh and blood;
Oh joy for me that sight to see!
For he was here, and only he.
"Suck, little babe, oh suck again!
It cools my blood; it cools my brain;
Thy lips I feel them, baby! they
Draw from my heart the pain away.
Oh! press me with thy little hand;
It loosens something at my chest;
About that tight and deadly band
I feel thy little fingers prest.
The breeze I see is in the tree:
It comes to cool my babe and me.
"Oh! love me, love me, little boy!
Thou art thy mother's only joy;
And do not dread the waves below,
When o'er the sea-rock's edge we go;
The high crag cannot work me harm,
Nor leaping torrents when they howl;
The babe I carry on my arm,
He saves for me my precious soul;
Then happy lie; for blest am I;
Without me my sweet babe would die.
"Then do not fear, my boy! for thee
Bold as a lion will I be;
And I will always be thy guide,
Through hollow snows and rivers wide.
I'll build an Indian bower;
I know The leaves that make the softest bed:
And, if from me thou wilt not go,
But still be true till I am dead,
My pretty thing! then thou shalt sing
As merry as the birds in spring.
"Thy father cares not for my breast,
'Tis thine, sweet baby, there to rest;
'Tis all thine own!--and, if its hue
Be changed, that was so fair to view,
'Tis fair enough for thee, my dove!
My beauty, little child, is flown,
But thou wilt live with me in love,
And what if my poor cheek be brown?
'Tis well for me, thou canst not see
How pale and wan it else would be.
"Dread not their taunts, my little Life;
I am thy father's wedded wife;
And underneath the spreading tree
We two will live in honesty.
If his sweet boy he could forsake,
With me he never would have stayed:
From him no harm my babe can take;
But he, poor man! is wretched made;
And every day we two will pray
For him that's gone and far away.
"I'll teach my boy the sweetest things:
I'll teach him how the owlet sings.
My little babe! thy lips are still,
And thou hast almost sucked thy fill. --
Where art thou gone, my own dear child?
What wicked looks are those I see?
Alas! alas! that look so wild,
It never, never came from me:
If thou art mad, my pretty lad,
Then I must be for ever sad.
"Oh! smile on me, my little lamb!
For I thy own dear mother am:
My love for thee has well been tried:
I've sought thy father far and wide.
I know the poisons of the shade;
I know the earth-nuts fit for food:
Then, pretty dear, be not afraid:
We'll find thy father in the wood.
Now laugh and be gay, to the woods away!
And there, my babe, we'll live for aye."

Ode to Autumn

Season of mists and mellow fruitfulness,
Close bosom-friend of the maturing sun;
Conspiring with him how to load and bless
With fruit the vines that round the thatch-eaves run;
To bend with apples the mossed cottage-trees,
And fill all fruit with ripeness to the core;
To swell the gourd, and plump the hazel shells
With a sweet kernel; to set budding more,
And still more, later flowers for the bees,
Until they think warm days will never cease,
For Summer has o'er-brimmed their clammy cell.
Who hath not seen thee oft amid thy store?
Sometimes whoever seeks abroad may find
Thee sitting careless on a granary floor,
Thy hair soft-lifted by the winnowing wind;
Or on a half-reaped furrow sound asleep,
Drowsed with the fume of poppies, while thy hook
Spares the next swath and all its twined flowers;
And sometimes like a gleaner thou dost keep
Steady thy laden head across a brook;
Or by a cider-press, with patient look,
Thou watchest the last oozings, hours by hours.
Where are the songs of Spring? Ay, where are they?
Think not of them, thou hast thy music too,--
While barred clouds bloom the soft-dying day,
And touch the stubble-plains with rosy hue;
Then in a wailful choir, the small gnats mourn
Among the river sallows, borne aloft
Or sinking as the light wind lives or dies;
And full-grown lambs loud bleat from hilly bourn;
Hedge-crickets sing; and now with treble soft
The redbreast whistles from a garden-croft,
And gathering swallows twitter in the skies.

Ode to a Nightingale!

MY heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains
My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,
Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains
One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk:
’Tis not through envy of thy happy lot,
But being too happy in thine happiness,—
That thou, light-winged Dryad of the trees,
In some melodious plot
Of beechen green, and shadows numberless,
Singest of summer in full-throated ease.
O, for a draught of vintage! that hath been
Cool’d a long age in the deep-delved earth,
Tasting of Flora and the country green,
Dance, and Provencal song, and sunburnt mirth!
O for a beaker full of the warm South,
Full of the true, the blushful Hippocrene,
With beaded bubbles winking at the brim,
And purple-stained mouth;
That I might drink, and leave the world unseen,
And with thee fade away into the forest dim:
Fade far away, dissolve, and quite forget
What thou among the leaves hast never known,
The weariness, the fever, and the fret
Here, where men sit and hear each other groan;
Where palsy shakes a few, sad, last gray hairs,
Where youth grows pale, and spectre-thin, and dies;
Where but to think is to be full of sorrow
And leaden-eyed despairs,
Where Beauty cannot keep her lustrous eyes,
Or new Love pine at them beyond to-morrow.
Away! away! for I will fly to thee,
Not charioted by Bacchus and his pards,
But on the viewless wings of Poesy,
Though the dull brain perplexes and retards:
Already with thee! tender is the night,
And haply the Queen-Moon is on her throne,
Cluster’d around by all her starry Fays;
But here there is no light,
Save what from heaven is with the breezes blown
Through verdurous glooms and winding mossy ways.
I cannot see what flowers are at my feet,
Nor what soft incense hangs upon the boughs,
But, in embalmed darkness, guess each sweet
Wherewith the seasonable month endows
The grass, the thicket, and the fruit-tree wild;
White hawthorn, and the pastoral eglantine;
Fast fading violets cover’d up in leaves;
And mid-May’s eldest child,
The coming musk-rose, full of dewy wine,
The murmurous haunt of flies on summer eves.
Darkling I listen; and, for many a time
I have been half in love with easeful Death,
Call’d him soft names in many a mused rhyme,
To take into the air my quiet breath;
Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain,
While thou art pouring forth thy soul abroad
In such an ecstasy!
Still wouldst thou sing, and I have ears in vain—
To thy high requiem become a sod.
Thou wast not born for death, immortal Bird!
No hungry generations tread thee down;
The voice I hear this passing night was heard
In ancient days by emperor and clown:
Perhaps the self-same song that found a path
Through the sad heart of Ruth, when, sick for home,
She stood in tears amid the alien corn;
The same that oft-times hath
Charm’d magic casements, opening on the foam
Of perilous seas, in faery lands forlorn.
Forlorn! the very word is like a bell
To toil me back from thee to my sole self!
Adieu! the fancy cannot cheat so well
As she is fam’d to do, deceiving elf.
Adieu! adieu! thy plaintive anthem fades
Past the near meadows, over the still stream,
Up the hill-side; and now ’tis buried deep
In the next valley-glades:
Was it a vision, or a waking dream?
Fled is that music:—Do I wake or sleep?

No Welcome Wagons Just Yet!!

Hello bloggers...

Well, I'm new to this blogging stuff, really liked it alot, as a friend had sorta introduced me to it. I have been planning to create my very own blog for a very long time now, but never got the time to do it. But now, my exams are over, (free at last), not only the exams, but now I have also graduated from Bahria University, yaaaay, completed my BBA (hons.) atlast, and about time.
Well, please keep the feedbacks rolling in, and I am open to suggestions, in fact, I would really appreciate them.

Cheers folks!!!